If i had saved up more money in the past..
If only i had spent more time on my job..
If i had not been such a spendthrift all the while..
If i have loads of money now..
There are too many 'if'' in my mind now..
I've been thinking..what do i excel in?
NOTHING!!I'm neither good in studies and relating with people..all i know is - idling around and waiting for my parents to do everything for me..though i'm working now but, have i given any allowance to my parents?No..i even stoled from them when i was young..all i know is to take money from them when i finish spending my salary, though i know that they hardly have anymore left for themselves..I'm being very unfilial..i often quarrel with my dad over very small matters..even to the extent of leaving home..i flared up when things don't follow the way i want it to be..perharps i'm just too sturborn to change..
Work..every 'interest' that i had, it didn't last long..i called it a quit when i find that i couldn't carry on with it..i'm just plain lazy..most of the time i just preferred to stay at home and do nothing..which i regretted alot..i'm not sure after my NS, my interest for Nursing will still be there..and that's wasting money again..
IF only all the 'if' can turn into reality..
10:24 PM.