Happy one month annivesary of being single to myself!!
But do you think i'm happy over this?
9:33 PM.
I HATE MYSELF!! Why do i choose to look back into the past when i know it will bring back those bad memories which i don't want to be reminded of? Why do i still choose to pacify those people who doesn't even care, and got myself hurt again in the end? I'm tired and lost..I really don't know what to do now..
11:15 PM.
Often when
i'm free, i will open my
msn chat log and read them (those chats with ahem),
reminiscing the past..but instead of finding memories, i got myself hurt more..especially when i'm reading through messages of quarrels..but sometimes i just can't control myself and i went ahead..too many regrets..hurt too many times..but i don't blame anyone..i only have myself to blame for everything that happens..
12:15 AM.