Last day of school today..somehow i doesn't want school to end ba, thinking of the changes that i will face after today..

I miss you..
I miss you..
I miss you..

Honestly, i can't bear for it to end..12 weeks seem to be very long but it passes really fast..had learnt alot of stuff and really felt satisfied when taking up jobs of an in-charge..woohoo~~!!=P

I will definitely miss everyone in ward 36..be it if u gave me good or bad memories..

First day of Chinese New Year..and guess what?? i stayed home the whole day today..not a good start i think..bad omen.=P..but nevermind i'm used to it le, since its been like this the past few years..

Woke up at 3 plus today..haven't been sleeping for this long le.=P
The only thing i did which i think was worth it was finish watching 'Miss No Good' ba..kept crying while watching it..maybe the storyline has got something to do with my life ba..also kept munching on tidbits..my favourite pineapple tarts!! But having sore throat now so better try to control myself ba..to think that one of my new year resolutions is to train myself for NS..but look at me now, keep eating non-stop..speaking of pineapple tarts, i kinda miss those we bought from Malacca..haiz..

Tomorrow going out for visiting le (like finally!!)..better try to sleep early tonight lest i got panda eyes tomorrow (but i already have them le..sob sob..)..

Somehow the things that we did on my birthday night, it keeps haunting me..i still remember everything we did in Malacca back than..from the nyonya dinner, to the viewing tower and jonker street, and to what we did in the hotel room.=P

These memories will never come back le..haiz, dunno why i become emo again tonight..

25th Oct 2008...
25th Nov 2008...
If nothing had happened that night, i dunno how the both of us will be now..will we still be loving? or always quarrelling..i kept thinking about this question while working just now..BUT even if we are still together now, it might be what you and i know that sustain this relationship, but not the feelings u have for me ba..

I hate the 25th of every month!! no more birthday celebration for me ever again..

Haiz wat should i do? i cant even decide wat i want now (or the future i should say)..Should i or should i not? i still have 2 years of NS to go through..by the time i'm out, the interest might not be there le..have to give an answer on Wednesday..wat should i do?

Name: L** T***S***
IC no.: S88XXXXXJ
Diagnosis: Unknown

#Diarrhea
A: BO X 4 during shift
: Large amount of soft watery st*** as observed
P: To prevent dehydration
I : Oral fluid intake encouraged
E: Diarrhea still persist
: To continue moniter

#Fever
A: Temperature 37.8 degree celcius
P: To reduce body temperature
I : Oral anti-pyretic served
: Bathed in cold water
: Nursed under fan
: Oral fluid intake encouraged
E : Fever still persist
: To continue moniter

#Giddiness
A: As felt
P: To ensure safety
I : Bedrest adviced
E : to continue treatment

Hope can get well soon..so tiring to work when i'm sick.=(

Down with fever today, but i still have to work..so sian..temperature i took highest was 39.0 degree celcius..scare the hell out of me..and i stoled one stripe of panadol..haha..

p.s. I still remember you are the one whom showed me concern when i last fell sick..oops.=P

STRESS UP!!

Sometimes i really have the urge to send a sms to u..but i cant find any reason for myself to do so, anymore..

Today is the start of the 9th week of PRCP..and one of the worse for me..Why??simply coz today was DAMN busy..and worse then that friday..i practically din sit down the whole day, and was busy from after report taking all the way to passing report..

From the time i finish taking report, is the start of hell for me..after reporting taking, as usual i start with my parameters and ADLs..blah blah blah.. den suddenly a whole swarm of doctors came into the ward and wanted to see most of my patients..sian..

I've got one patient with low haemoglobin and need blood transfusion, and have family conference with the team doctors as the patient had juz been diagnosed with CA sigmoid colon..and the family also requested for upgrade to B1 class, which means more work for me..Another patient, whose lab results juz came back today and have AB over his leg wound..and was planned for operation today..so was also preparing him for op..and this patient has low blood glucose level..so means more work..

Some other jobs i did today..went up to inpatient pharmacy thrice for my team, and the pharmacist too such a long time(talking about Twilight)!!attending to this patient who can walk BUT claims that he cant walk to the toilet!!keep answering call bell from this uncle who has cognitive impairment, and he called juz for things lyk adjuzting his bedside locker and the height of his back..and asking questions that i had already answered him the past few days..preparing my patients for operation as i had 3 patients scheduled for op..transferring my patient to another ward..and the endless report writing and the last minute new case..oh i did skin prep also which i had not done any during my 3 years in Nursing..unbelievable huh??lol..

Anyway i got 3 patients with infected wounds..to think that i initially wanted to take 8 patients today..luckily i did not..but my poor staff nurse..can see that she was really stressed up today..had to look after her patients as well as guiding me at the same time..but she said something to me at the end, which made me really happy..haha..

Now waiting for the year two students to come in..hope can at least ease some of the junior work ba..and..25 more days to go!!

Why are some people so stubborn and sickening??i already told u so many times that i dun like u and its not possible for us to be together..but yet u are still doing this..

how long have we knew each other??not even one week..u juz lyk me based on what u had seen in my profiles and the video..don't u think u are too childish??this is not love..thats all i can say..

You had made me come to this decision, to block u in my msn..and maybe to stop the friendship as well..

Why do i keep having this feeling that he actually still likes me ALOT, but doesn't want to get back with me and treating me so cold, as he loves me too much and doesn't want me to get hurt again by what he did?

And, why am i thinking of this now?

Finally back with my blog!!After i had deleted mine 2 years back due to some stupid reason..Actually wanted to revive my blog some time back..but was too lazy to do so as i don't really have the time to manage it..haha..From now on, i will try to update more often..though will be mostly emo post i think..haha..

2008 is over..its quite a smooth year i supposed..nothing much had happened compared to the previous few years..though there are something that happened towards the end of the year, that changes my life a little..And i really want to thank those who had walked through last year with me..especially during the period when i felt that there is already no purpose for me to live on..

But now i shall look ahead and move on i think..anyway here are some of my new year resolutions i hope to fulfil in 2009..hopefully..
-not to flirt so much
-learn to be a better boyfriend
-to train myself for National Service (coming real soon=X)
-learn to manage my money (not to spend so much)
-learn to control my bad temper
-use less vulgarities

Hope 2009 will be a good one, and i will be able to forget the painful past as soon as possible..

Tianshun
25 October 1988
Emotional Creature

Good results for PRCP
Joey Lam