Guess i might be the biggest fool in this world..even though i know that i will get myself hurt more, and fall deeper, yet i still choose to do things which i don't mean to do, and things i don't mean to say, and pretend that nothing has happened before..haiz..

Time flies..and its the 25th again..but somehow i don't feel much this time round..maybe too many things happened recently..which took over the pain which i had..or maybe it just add on to those existing pain..i don't know..

I have made a decision to change..for the better (actually more for someone else to be honest)..i know that its not easy and it might take a very long period of time..but i will persevere..because i know that what that person did for me are all for my own good..

I'm all alone now..i have no one to turn to..everyone left me..i'm not being trusted le..i feel so lonely now =(

Why is god so unfair to me?
Why is god toying with me like this?
One mistake i made and i lost 2 person whom i loved and loved me..
Just one wrong move..
I cried but nobody knows, nobody saw..
I'm just someone whom nobody understand how i feel..
Nobody cares..
Nobody love..
I'm just a nobody to you..
A nobody..

Mindset changes..
People changes..
Looks changes..
Places changes..
Timing changes..
Relationship changes..
Your heart changes..
Your others heart changes..
Everything changes..
But even if the world changes, my feelings for you will never change..

Why do i have to wake up every morning?Why can't i just continue sleeping without having to wake up, and not having to face all these?I love you but this is what i got..all because of one wrong move i made..

All the while i thought that i can remain strong and not shed a drop of tears..but i was wrong..whenever i think of you, i just couldn't control myself..perharps i don't deserve your forgiveness..as the things that i had done was too unforgivable..

You are THE ONE whom brought me out of my bad memories..
THE ONE whom supported me through the toughest time..
THE ONE whom i go to when i needed someone..
THE ONE whom i had great memories with..
THE ONE whom i wanted to take care of..
THE ONE whom i trusted the most..
THE ONE whom i missed the most..
THE ONE whom i loved the most..

Till now,
You are still THE ONE whom i hope can go to when i need someone..
THE ONE whom i want the great memories to be continued..
THE ONE whom i still want to take care of..
THE ONE whom i still trust the most..
THE ONE whom i still miss the most..
THE ONE whom i still love the most..

THE ONE whom i will continue to wait, till you are willingto accept me again..

I went up to the hill today, thinking of the past we shared..
I sat opposite your house looking into your window, to ease the urge of wanting to see you again..
I hope to get more of your attention, as i realized i really love you alot..
I hope you will see me downstairs through the window, but i hid myself in the end..

I love you..
and
I will be waiting for you till you are willing to accept me again..

Guessed i know the reason for the things that happened..
Its because..
I'm neither rich, tall, handsome/cute, have good complexion, have beautiful eyes, and i don't drive..

I wonder who on earth will be so stupid, to fall in love and commit himself totally to a person, and ended up getting hurt in the end..YES I'M THE ONE!!

Guessed i might be the biggest fool in this world, to actually believe that this person is true to me and someone whom i can depend on..i was wrong..you are just like anyone of them whom i can find anywhere else..one who tells me that you like me, and then throw me aside when you're sick and tired of playing (with me)..

I"M UTTERLY DISSAPOINTED..

Love is just like a game..its a competition to see whose feeling fades first..i've been defeated terribly..i've lost..

Its never a good thing to stay faithful coz the other party won't..i've learnt a lesson, never to commit myself totally to another person..

Tianshun
25 October 1988
Emotional Creature

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